This is how i feel ... "Someday"

"Someday"

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be someone

And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again

by. Rob Thomas - Someday

Answer

I might not be everything you ever wanted, but I'm always going to be more than you deserve.

Sometimes we waste too much time thinking about someone who doesn't even think about us for a second.

and

The beauty of life does not depend on how happy you are, but how happy others can be because of you.

There Is Nothing Wrong With It...

I used to hate being alone. I used to define myself, my value as a person, by whether or not I had a significant other in my life, but as I've gotten older. I've learned to appreciate the single life and I've learned that I've always sort of been more attracted to a single lifestyle than one in which I share it with another person.

But, now i'm lonely. No one can understand what i feel now.

Yoav - Beautiful Lie

Yesterday, today, tomorrow
Fade away like frozen photographs.
Remember, forget
The stakes, the ways you take,
The ways you make the moments pass.
For every regret,
I tell a beautiful lie.
And I would die if you find out.
I tell a beautiful lie every time that I
did not open up my mouth.
All the same, it’s a game,
it’s a play, it’s a war,
it’s a shame that we’re always fighting for.
I don’t mean to cast no blame,
I don’t intend to pretend, I could, never loved you more.
But in the blink of an eye, everything you ever knew can change
And it’s a beautiful lie if you think everything will always stay the same.

Babe.
My babe.
You got a secret – it’s starting to show.
My babe.
Sweet babe.
How long can you keep it?
How far would you go?
You tell a beautiful lie.
You tell a beautiful lie.
And it’s going to, it’s going to drive you crazy.

Babe
My babe.
It’s starting to show.
My babe.
Sweet babe.
How far would you go, go, go to tell a beautiful lie?
Yesterday, today, tomorrow
Fade away like frozen photographs
Remember, forget
Forever.
Lie.

Beautiful lie.

This is how i feel now, i hope u can understand me

The Rasmus - Justify

So close so far I'm lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign
The last goodbye burns in my mind
Why did I leave you behind?
Guess it was too high to climb

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Living a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

Someone as beautiful as you
Could do much better it's true
That didn't matter to you
I tried so hard to be the one
Its something I couldn't do
Guess I was under the gun

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Living a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

It's only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin
Someone else

So close so far
I'm lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Living a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

It's only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin
Someone else

It's Not Yet Late!

It's Not Yet Late!

Don't you know that you can still save your relationship even if it seems hopeless...

...there is a "recipe for love" as well as a recipe for winning back and keeping some ones interest, desire, passion, heart and love...

"You've never felt pain until you've felt love."

Just be ...

You see me laugh,
And assume that I don't cry,
Because I hide my tears away,
Cause I don't want you to see.

I put a smile on my face,
Pretend that I'm happy,
But you don't look hard enough,
To notice I'm really not.

You ask me "whats wrong?"
I reply "nothing, I'm okay."
You believe me and walk away.
How can you not see that I'm not?

Just because I laugh doesn't mean I don't cry.
Just because I smile doesn't mean I'm happy.
Just because I say I'm okay doesn't mean I am.

Just because I can force a smile doesn’t mean I'm happy,
and just because I can fake a laugh doesn’t mean I'm okay
Just because i smile, doesn't mean that i'm happy,
because it only takes one smile to cover a million tears.

Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm not dying inside.
Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm not depressed
Just because I smile, doesn't mean that I'm lying.
Just because I act like I'm fine, it doesn't mean I'm happy.

Smile though your heart is aching,
smile even though it's breaking.

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.
It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

By. Sid

One

When, I saw you for the first time
I knew you were the one.
You didn't say a word to me.
But love, was in the air.

Then you held my hand
Pulled me into your world
From then on my life
Has changed for me

Now I'll never feel lonely again
Coz you are in my life...

Love...
How can I explain to you
The way I feel inside when I think of you..
I thank you for everything that you showed me.
Don't you ever forget that I love you.

Love, I know that someday real soon
You'll be right next to me.
Holding me so tight.
So I will always be yours.
Although we can't be together now.
Remember I am here for you.

And I know you're there for me.
Whenever I want to be with you
I just close my eyes and pretend you're near
I see you, I touch you, I feel you, like real

Nothing can ever change what I feel inside.

How long must I be far away from you?
I don't know dear, but I know we are One...

Day 3

Memasuki hari ke 3, perasaan ini tetap menganggu. Kapan ak bisa bertemu dengan dia, ak ingin menjelaskan smuanya, dan menanyakan pokok permasalahan ini. Ak tidak tahu dimana letak kesalahan ku yg sudah ku perbuat. Menyakitinya? Menghianatinya? Melukainya? Berbohong? Meingggalkannya? Depress dan stress, tapi ak tidak bisa seperti ini trus. Maju dan maju, itu yg ak pikirkan skrg, kalau berhenti di sini, ini hanya akan menghambat cita2 ku.

Ada perasaan sakit hati, sedih, kecewa, senang dan bingung. Kecewa just friend, tanpa dia ngomong langsung, sedih tidak bisa bertemu dia, senang bisa mengetahui selama 5 tahun ini tidak mencari wanita, hanya untuk mencari cinta sejati, dan menemukan nya sebagai cinta sejati, dan ternyata hanya dia yang ak sayang. dan Bingung letak kesalahan ak dimana, sampai dia memberikan suatu pernyataan "sudah berteman saja". itupun bukan dari dirinya. bahkan ak pun belum menyatakan perasaan ini.

ada kesalahan besar yang ak lakukan, dengan mengatakan "iya". ak seharusnya memikirkan nya terlebih dahulu, sebelum mengatakan itu. iya diluar tp tidak di hati ini, ingin mengatakan tidak, tapi sudah terucap. aku ini bodoh, tidak memikirkan terlebih dahulu konsekuensi dari pernyataan itu. dan hasilnya, dia berusaha menjauhi aku.

terus dan terus menjauhi ak, entah apa yg dia pikirkan sekarang. ak sudah senang bersama dia, susah dan senang ak bagi, walaupun ak tidak sempurna di mana dia, ak berusaha untuk sempurna, berusaha untuk membuat dia tertawa.

di balik senyum yang ak beri, sebenarnya itu adalah hal paling sedih yg harus ku lakukan, berusaha untuk selalu tersenyum. dan ternyata itu salah. yang terjadi ya terjadilah, sudah tidak bisa di tarik lagi, "life must go on". everything must be go on, sekarang ak sendiri yg mempunyai rasa sayang ini, andai bisa mengembalikan waktu, ak akan mengulangnya dan mengatakan " ak ingin cinta ini terbalas dan ak siap".

tapi ak tak akan pernah give up, never surrender, if i do that, it will be not me. i'm who i'm, you shall see, watch and learn, i become better and better.

then 1 day, i will tell the truth about this feeling to you. and give everything to you, to make u believe and trust me. still loving you [Y]ou.

Pain and Believe

This pain is just too real, these wounds won't seem to heal, there's just too much that time cannot erase. Theres nothing left of me to be hurt anymore, i've been torn apart. But i'm still believing in you